So, a friend that went on the mission trip with me in May pointed out to me that I had not blogged since July. I thought, “Gee, has it really been that long? It doesn’t feel like it.” Sure enough, it has been that long! So much has happened in the last 3 months, I will try to catch you up as best as I can…..
I currently have 5 kids in my home. My own red-headed 9 year old daughter, my 18 month old foster daughter, my 3 and 6 year old foster boys who are brothers and the newest addition is a 15 year old foster daughter. These 5 blessings are just part of the reason for the distraction that has kept me from blogging. You remember that I am also a full-time student, right? Well, classes started up again in August after having taken the summer off. I am taking some doozey classes that are keeping me very preoccupied right now. I am learning a lot, but I think this may be the hardest semester of classes I have taken. The closer I get to graduation, the more intense the classes get. There is a light at the end of the tunnel though. If I take an extra class in the next 2 semesters then I should be done Fall 2011. Whoohoo!
This has been an incredible journey for me, going back to school. I have enjoyed it tremendously but it will be nice to be done. I can’t wait to walk across that stage!
My only regret is that my Mom won’t be there to whoop and holler and let everyone around her know how proud she is. Oh yes, she would make a spectacle of herself when it came to her kids. We all knew, without a shadow of doubt when she was proud. We are a lot alike in that respect. I know that she will be looking down and whooping and hollering from above. I just wish sometimes I could see it. Anyway, enough of that….we all know I miss my Mama dearly. I don’t need to dwell on that.
Another super positive change that has taken place is that my boys are very close to going home. I am so happy about that! Their Mom has made so many positive changes its unreal. She has started going to church with us even! I will be very sad when they go, but their Mom and I have developed a relationship and she has asked if I will stay in both her and the boys’ lives. She said in court that I have been a positive influence on her and the main reason she was able to make the change she has. I almost burst into tears, right there in front of everyone! It has been so awesome to see these things come to pass. The most important thing of all is that she has asked God to come into her life and heart! As hard as it has been at times, this has made it all worthwhile. God, I give you the glory for this miracle! Thank you for letting me be a part and witness to it.
I have also quit one of my part time jobs. Being able to sleep at home every night has been a lot less stressful for the kids and me both. I do miss the clients though. I continue to pray for them. When I quit that job I started working 5 days at the restaurant I work at. I love working there! It is set inside a Christian book store. Sometimes I have to remind myself that I am on a budget so I don’t go overboard on all the books and CD’s they have there. Who am I kidding? I have to remind myself daily!
I am sorry to say that there is nothing to report on the romance front. I am still very much single. I have been thinking about this quite a bit lately. I had someone ask me why I don’t date. Well, I don’t have a very good track record. I don’t really trust myself to choose who would be good for me and my children. So, I am letting God choose for me. He knows what’s best and I trust His judgment alone. Plus, I am still waiting for that guy that sees my kids as a huge bonus instead of a mountainous stumbling block. He’s out there somewhere.
All these changes and additional things going on have definitely kept me hopping. I have found myself overwhelmed at times, just today in fact. However, that is going to be material for another blog as I am still processing through that. It would make this one way too long. I am relying on God to see me through all these things.
Something I am declaring here and now, is that I am not letting anyone or anything steal my peace! It is mine to cherish and keep. Stress tends to do that to me. Then I get even more stressed because I don’t like feeling that way. Being exhausted and about to cry at the drop of a hat is not how life is supposed to be. When I started walking with God, He took those things over for me. I used to get overwhelmed at the smallest of things. Of course, I have a lot more going on now than I did then but even so, I refuse to let things get to me and destroy my good mood. After all, if my God is for me than what can be against me? Not one single thing. Thank you Lord for placing importance on even the small things that bother me. I can’t do any of this on my own. I don’t want to even try anymore. I leave it all in Your very capable hands, knowing that You can handle anything. You are God, after all!
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