Who do you represent today?

Oh, it has been a busy few days. Last night was our first children's church. It was a little chaotic, but very successful. I feel pretty good about it and have some more ideas brewing in my head. Can you pray for me on this one? I feel that it is a very big responsibility to teach about God. Sometimes I feel unworthy, but you know what the song says, "This little light of mine, I'm gonna let it shine!" I am the kind of person that when I am excited about something I want to tell everyone about it. I want everyone I know to be as whole as I am.

I feel unworthy about a lot of things. Who am I? I think that's why this blog thing had been bothering me. I enjoy writing it. I just feel weirded out that it has taken off like it has. I say that like I have hundreds of readers! Heehee! I do have 6 followers now though. Moving on up, baby! It made me nervous that some of my friends and family wanted me to make business cards and possibly make my own website. I started shrinking back from it. Not me! I don't want people looking at me like that!! I talked to a couple of good friends of mine about it, who also happen to be my pastors. I was stressing way too much! I told them about the whole thing. It went like this......
"So, what do you think about that? Isn't that weird?"
"What about that is weird? I think both ideas are great."
"I don't know if I'm ready for that though!"
"Why, you don't want people to know what you are doing?"
"No, that's not it."
"What then?"
"It's just me! Who really cares?"
"Hannah, if God gives you something to say then you need to say it. Whether you believe it or not, you are making a difference. Who better to talk about turning your life around than someone who has?"
"Yeah, but making business cards? My own website? Am I going to have to take computer classes to keep up with this thing?"
"No, you just write. This is a God thing and He will provide for it. If one of your friends feels led to set up a website for you then they will. If your sister wants to hand out business cards that's great. You don't have to do anything about it. You just write. That's your job in this. The rest will fall into place."
Man, am I blessed to have such supportive and wonderful people in my life or what? So, I am feeling better about it all. This is not about me, thank you God!! It's about Him and my walk with Him. It's a personal thing, but I'm willing to share because He laid it on my heart to do so. I know not everyone may agree with what I write but that's okay. I'm not going to worry about it. I'm just going to pray, and write, and let God take care of the rest.

Today, I was mulling this over as I put on my apron for the Bistro. When you work for a business you represent what they are all about. Your attitude towards yourself and others, your appearance, the words you speak, and your actions are all a reflection of your employer. Even when you are not at work, if people see you somewhere and recognize you they associate you with your company. For example, if you see the cable guy screaming at a grocery store employee, doesn't that make you think, "Geez, remind me not to get cable from him!?" It would for me. That may not be fair, but that's the way it is. So, I know that I blogged about not judging a book by it's cover but this is going to kind of contradict that a little. It's two different things though. I think.

I started asking myself this question, "Does everything about me represent my Father? Do my words, actions, and attitudes reflect Him?" Not all the time. But, I work hard to make sure that I please Him. Not because I have to. Not because I think He will stop loving me. Not even because I'm afraid of going to hell. I want to be a reflection of Him because I love Him and I choose to. I wake up every day and choose how that day is going to go. I cannot control my circumstances. Control is an illusion. I can, however, control how I react to them.

I'm not at all perfect! I sometimes yell at my kids, my house is not spotless, I sometimes cheat on my diet (Oops! I mean lifestyle change), and I speed when I think I can get away with it. God loves me despite all my little quirks. That is a pretty awesome feeling! I have changed things because I chose to. I wanted to glorify Him. I didn't want someone I saw in church listening to me curse at the park. Oh yeah, that totally happened. To stop cursing was one of my biggest triumphs because of how difficult it was! Did I shock you? Sorry. I didn't curse all the time but they would slip out. I was good at it too. I would get frustrated and the bleeps would start falling out of my mouth! I use other words now. One of my favorites is "BISCUIT EATER!" Don't ask me where it came from because I don't know.

Yes, even when I am alone in my home I am still representing Him..... They will know you are followers because of your love for one another....... Are you representing? Would people be surprised to find out you love God? We don't have to be underground anymore. That stopped thousands of years ago. It won't kill you to be a Christian in public. It used to though. Isn't it amazing that we don't have to keep our light covered up? So, are you representing today?